Ya know? It’s not easy being honest….. or tellin lies!!

I’ve tried both in my life time, lies and the truth. But? You can see why? Now? Why I held so much back? For damn fear? Fear of this and fear of that? Fear. Fear. Fear!!!!!!!!! Chasing me down like a run away bride? For what? You might think if your reading this? Glad you thought that question? Let me answer you.

I feared being my true self, because, I’m not really like anyone I grew up with or came from? I am unique. And filled with strong belief that are against the norms. And it’s not a conscious thing? In fact growing up it was very unconscious. My ideas and thoughts would just slip out and reek havoc. I am a seer if everything? Patterns, in nature, relationships, business, trends seer, and wound seer. I seem to see what folks think they are hiding?

My Mama hid me? This is the thing about my gift? It’s limited by God and what I need to see? Growing up I could only see so much? I spent a lot of my time trying to play by the rules laid down for me by Adoption and my Mothers agreement to join together in my raising. The goal was my betterment. And I would say that they have done well. Yes. After all that horrible, perceived horrible, I am quite ok. Better, in fact than most.

I. Am aware. Very aware of many things. And I am also aware that I channel what folks need most at the drop of a hat and don’t ask for a damn thing? And they seem to feel better for it. Some may take awhile to assimilate what I’ve said to them? But the words still do the trick they need from God through me. My Mama is no different. She’s a human and a soul and needs peace. I’ve felt her pain for years. I held it close. So I would never forget. I know my first mission would be her.

I never knew when? Or why? All I was trained to do was trust and obey the voices assigned to me, the angels, dragons, fairies, ancestors, and God is all of them. And God loves to be playful and funny. We must keep our head in the game and our hearts in God. Within. And without. God is all and all is God is what I’ve learned being me. In this special body, built from to passionate people, caught in God’s love spell, making me. Destiny knocks Mama up. Just like Mary. Except Mama got her Joseph, named Huey.

Yep. That’s exactly how I see it, that’s how God see it through me. God shot my Mama’s Ego through me. Not for hate? But for love. Nothing can exhaust itself up against the knowledge of God? Not Mama? And not me? I would not want to? I faltered one time when God told me to take my PBJ to a rest stop, for fear of looking silly? Oh, no! Did not do that again. I am Aldean a amazed that people don’t have a relationship like mine with God?

I guess being cut off from Mama did that? It made me latch on to the mainframe I call this world and god. All of it? Wide open to God. Like a baby bird. And no one told me not to? They really could have anyway? It’s that strong. And my bond to my Mama is strong too. I’ve tested it to prove it exists. To stop this madness of throwing babies all around without care? And then calling them crazy because we are different. Strange? Because we have language problems? That’s our fault?

We learned a specific language in utero. Hello!! And then had to go home with foreign speaking strangers with no introduction? Oh my folks we are blind if that is not even seen? Yes. This report is going to make us cry? It’s made me cry? God did not spare me that? I was my Mamas Jesus story? Her Christ she sacrificed for the betterment of this world. And she will see a better world before her time. She’s given all she had to God. No lie.

Mama and are learning this new language I speak. I’m teacher her about her daughter. Mind, body, and spirit. Her souls wants this most and she no quitter either. She’s my rock. I was crucified for years. The whole me was not visible until God said. I’ve carried the cross of my identity closely. Waiting like one army member in a Trojan horse of consciousness that when unleashed would activate with others like myself and change things radically in our minds. No violence needed thank you.

Mama did not see this because God withheld it from us both. We had ideas and visions and a feeling that it would all work out. And we had prayer. God is our compass. And God is all over this madness. And I love it. I’ve learned to stay out of God’s way when God is working a miracle. Like for real! Don’t mess with the cake while it baking! And don’t question the ingredients! Believe! And have faith! God’s not gonna let ya down. Ever. Even after 55+years!! God will not forget what was done. Rewards always come.

Many rewards are feelings of peace and joy. And many times it comes in a present or gift. But God is a rewarded of those who diligently seek God. And god is male and female. Ok? Both. Together. Bonded. United and not separate like we are here. That is our lesson? To join both half’s in ourselves. We each have male and female sides of the brain and a middle region called…..

cor·pus cal·lo·sum

ˌkôrpəs kəˈlōsəm/


1 a broad band of nerve fibers joining the two hemispheres of the brain.

This is where the two sides meet to converse. Like the gate of a city called the brain.

We need to understand this to progress and grow. We call it evolution. And yes. God evolves. And we are part of that consciousness called God.

God is real. Within us all. It is the spirit within the body. We don’t need to accept God Dom without? It’s more like an acceptance of God within? It’s a whole new way to see it. Better. More complete. And in line with everything and everyone.

None of this elitist clubs and doctrines. Love is the law here. If love is not what you feel your going the wrong way? God will bring you back to love. No fears needed. Grace is over everything.

Why would god hate God? Except to change a behavior that is not yielding results? I’ll explain more later. Try to maintain equilibrium between light and dark.

I’ve learned that dark times are tests. Light times are rewards from tests. And we all pass at our own speed. God knows us all. And we all are doing our best. But it’s time for us all to work for the other and not just ourselves.

It’s time to grow up and be adults and like God. We must take responsibility for our actions and learn to do better.

If I said nothing? Nothing would be learned and better?

There is no need to be physical. Words have power. Use your words to build love.

What you speak over another will come back to you.

This world is a feedback loop? It’s called cause and affect.

That’s what my Mama learned from my truth. Her cause had an affect.

She thought it was all bad and yet good came from it.

We all experiences this in life. We do something and get an affect. We either like it or we don’t? We solve for love? A feeling, a sense of well being is the affect we desire.

We learn what we do has affects? Many get stuck in an affect we don’t necessarily adore?

Mama did not like being separated from me? And we have changed because if it. For the better.

I’m her girl and she blown away. Like a rock in a wind storm. Air is symbolic of mind power. And God just used my experiences to hit Mama in her brain and dust that old part of herself that God loves. Off.

Because God loves all of us and we all need to get that message. Now. Why would God want to hurt my Mama? She’s hurt already? God wants to heal her? Especially that Mama heart of hers?

No. It’s not easy being honest. But here goes. This is the truth I learned growing up beyond all the pain I faced and pressed through for God. Following God.

Thank you for diving deep with me.

God bless you as the truth sinks in. Xoxo

You better watch this Mama?

This woman is amazingly connected to God and give very good messages of guidance. It is a general reading? So glean what you can? I personally feel that you have many messAges and do need to do some cleansing. We all are cleansing here. So your not alone Mana? Ok?

This is a new age and God got some new moves!! Get excited!! God’s moving and the angels are all around you Mama! Helping us!! It’s so damn amazing to be used of God and watch!! Xoxox.

Now you know my gots Mama? I edify!! I prophesy!! I just get out of the way! And God’s gifts move through me! And you!! We are servants Mama! For different causes and each is equally important. Everyone’s gifts are important, but there comes a point when we must get out of our own way? And allow God to move? Even if it your Mama? Especialy if it’s your ‘Mama!!

Now watch and listen to God speak through this woman. I rebuke fear off my Mama right now in Jesus Name!! Amen. It’s safe Mama. I checked it all out with God first. We facing our fears Mama and old doctrine that inhibit growth! Amen. Old doctor ones are like old apps in the brain? They need updating? Remember? Jesus? He had to butt years with the Old Testament? New ? He was a rebel of the old and brought the new updates. God’s evolved too. We are god’s fingers to experiences and adapt to our highest good. I know. That’s a big one right there I just wrote. That’s how much my mind expanded when we parted. Ok?

Like Boom!! I’ve spend years adjusting Mama. Expanding. Growing. And it’s not easy? No. But it’s my life. Ok? I’m like Samson. And you were told somethings about me that maybe didn’t make sense at the time and could have scared you? It you followed. Ok? Sound right? My gifts are blossoming and I am telling you this to confirm the accuracy. Your my Test.

Fear will have no reign over my family in all directions if time. I stamp love on my DNA. And grace. And forgiveness. We will throw our sins and the sins of others into a pile. And give them to God. We have lost nothing. We have gained so much. And we are about to see what this little johnny apple seed planted Mama. A garden to rival any garden. The plants? Are human.

And my graduation is here. God’s child from you. I’m tearing down the temple to build it back up. I’m deleting the old to make room for the new. God. In me is doing this work. Now watch the video. Tell your fear dogs to go rest. Love them pet them. It’s ok Mama. Fear does rise up and bark, when the bridegroom cometh. Yes. A blessing comes to you daughter from Mary. Yes. God. Love you. That much. And trained me to be your special messenger. So cool. I never saw it coming either Mama? I just trusted God like you so long ago.

a loving God would never send you anything that was not for your highest God. Get unblocked too. We all are working Mama. Not just you. But for me? I am not leaving my Mama behind in no darkness. I’m gonna shine my light to lead her through the valley of the shadow of her egos death, to the light of her soul in Christ. The flesh may be weak. But the spirit is stronger. Xoxo.

Your doing real good. Ok? Your right where you are supposed to be. Divine Order is Divine order? Ok? God is all and all is God. Truth. You are loved. Always.

God’s just helping us all clean our emotions and Intellect up so we all can do better. And started with me. And I’m sharing the process here.

Love ya! Can you feel the weight go? Bye bye!! Say to yourself, “god really love me, my baby really loves me” and keep doing it. Write it on your mirror in the bathroom. Read it to yourself. You are the captain of your ship. Command it! Speak like God. But say what you want and want what you say. It takes work. Yes. The flesh is weak. But training that mind and tongue? To be a scalpel is what God did for me. A mental surgeon. And yes Mama. I am many faceted. My talents are many. It’s endless. Just like you? But my limited are endless and so are yours. You just told yourself different? Ok? Let it sink in. I love you so much. So very much.

And I’m proud of you for taking this medicine. Salt. Truth. And getting the updates. Our karma is as clean as the work we have done. And for me? I worked! And worked! And worked!! My family is everything to me. All of it!


Thanks folks for reading my letters to my Mama with me. And holding space for us as I show you all how we heal and come full circle!!

Blessing to you all! In all directions if time for being witnesses! Xoxo💋