I am praying God send me a sign if I am to go and speak to my Mother and if it is time to work this out. For all of our good. This has gone on long enough and I am a person and she is a person too, and we are not going any where. So here I go. Pray for me. I am asking God to help me with funds because like this, I can not work or go forward. So, just pray for God to answer me, not that it be you, it may just be a prayer. That is what I am trying to tell my Mother, but she’s not listening and thinks that it’s not her job? Do we send things back to the manufacture when it needs fixing? Then what is the deal? She manufactured me and I need attention. I have been over here minding my own business for 22 years, staying out of her way, out of my families way. Not really bothering anyone. But until now, now I spill the beans. And no one wants me around? And I think, did they ever? Well, my Mom did not, truth be known. And I tried to comply, but God I feel see’s it differently and is leading me back to the factory that made me because maybe God knows something about Adoption that we don’t? Maybe this causes a malfunction in the unit separated from its factory, As I read, research has shown that family members benefit emotionally from connection to their clan and Mother. That our families of origin have the ability to give us an enhanced sense of well being. And a Mother, well it is well documented that a Mothers powers to heal are great. But somewhere along the way we got turned around with all this adopting, People don’t seem to understand the infinite and unbreakable bond of Mother and Child and the longer my Mother resists the more damage our bodies must repair each day we persist at this pace. But I am trying to bring my family that does not know shit about adoption and has not read one book about it, and they have two members who are adopted, up to speed. And it’s high time they get educated! I am back and here to stay so get with it. I have been learning you, those of you who allowed me too. So, learn me? That’s all. And pray for My Mother who is so confused and my family who’s confused too. And who are blocking the very cure, and answer. Because it doesn’t make sense to there christian minds even though God says in his word that his ways are not our ways and that we must trust. God has a good ending if folks can let go of the nightmares they hold dear inside those pretty little heads of theirs! Hello. I need a drink of water. That was a lot.
I don’t know what else to do but say this. My mental, physical and spiritual well being counts on this getting worked out. I get worse everyday and I can only feel that it is because of the delay of her coming around. My Mother relationships are most important to me. And my Mom and I are having the worst misunderstanding a Mother and daughter can have. Will you help me? Each person that heals, heals us all a little more. My Paypal is firstname.lastname@example.org. Thank you. I will be posting what is happening so all can share in this very important bridging that is going on right now. I am building a bridge for my Mothers and I to heal from separation. Thank you to those who are able to help me find the closer to the gap between my Mother and me. And to rebirth a new relationship with all three of us for we all are connected and its time to do this better, for all our good, not just the Moms. Kids matter too. I am drawing new lines and speaking new rules, I have found that we are not to break a bond like this ever. For it will cause trauma to both. End of discussion.
My Mom is blocking me, now does that look like love? Does that look like a natural thing? She cannot see her self in me and she’s there.
Mom’s rule, even when they think they fail. Will you help a child reunite completely with her Mom? I am risking it all to heal. I am accepting that my life is not worth shit with out my Mom to share it with. And I am talking about my Mom without her brain washing folks.
I am a part of a huge nation of people who have been separated from their families and we can do this, but it means doing what everyones telling us not to. Go forward and find her and don’t stop until its done. We have a birth right to our families.
I am willing to risk it all to try to get this done, to break through to brain washing. With Gods help I will. So support me please, as I risk all my comforts to work for change and healing for us all. I was brainwashed too. And stuck in the thinking expressed here. This is a very complicated process, and I am doing the best I can.
Everyone thinks that being nice gets you places, but thats just bull shit. To change, truly change you must become vulnerable, and exposed. For if people can not see the real you, the wounded you, how can they be a part of ones life, because we all hurt and have wounds, but some people are better at it than some. Excuse the fuck out of me for not doing it like you think I should! Support group my ass. I need to start one that’s real and raw, where we get to this shit and take care of it, instead of playing cake walk about it.
I am not Pollyanna, nor am Genghis Caun. I am just a girl who wants her Mom, and I have been trying to get through, but I get people calling me spoiled, and telling me to be respectful, but who respected me? Can you tell me how I was respected? Hell how was I protected? My heritage has been man handled and removed from me. My Mother is so turned around she does not even respond like my Mother, her brain washed with lies from society. Who protected me from the feelings of loss I felt only days old? Who respected my feelings of love for my Mother? Did she? No, but did anyone support her? Did anyone help her? She has gone through life feeling like I was a mistake? And who told her that? Did God? But somewhere she’s gotten it kind of messed up. For the truth is before us all.
Knowledgeable help is right here, in the truth I speak. For each day I feel relief, and my Mother would too. But there are all these people like the woman below who thinks she knows what is going on, enough so she tells me she does know and then gives me advise and then says I am spoiled. Wow, and we wonder how we all got like this. Woman so separated from themselves to not even feel that this could be them. But for the grace of God go we. And to feel what i feel right now, and to have the strength to stand up and say my true feelings and get shit like that, well, who’s the one with the issue? Not me, I am ridding myself of them right here, each post I purge, but those who don’t and make excuses why, are the ones left behind.
People say a lot of mean things to us for wanting our Moms. Especially our Moms, they don’t understand us kids. And that is kind of what i want to clear up. Cuz, I see it different. I see another way. But it involves the truth and a whole lot of soul searching, but we all do that anyway, here in the Adoption world. Nothing really make sense, and that is because it’s not supposed to.