Will you help me get to my Mother?

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I am praying God send me a sign if I am to go and speak to my Mother and if it is time to work this out. For all of our good. This has gone on long enough and I am a person and she is a person too, and we are not going any where.  So here I go. Pray for me. I am asking God to help me with funds because like this, I can not work or go forward. So, just pray for God to answer me, not that it be you, it may just be a prayer.  That is what I am trying to tell my Mother, but she’s not listening and thinks that it’s not her job? Do we send things back to the manufacture when it needs fixing? Then what is the deal? She manufactured me and I need attention. I have been over here minding my own business for 22 years, staying out of her way, out of my families way. Not really bothering anyone. But until now, now I spill the beans. And no one wants me around? And I think, did they ever? Well, my Mom did not, truth be known. And I tried to comply, but God I feel see’s it differently and is leading me back to the factory that made me because maybe God knows something about Adoption that we don’t? Maybe this causes a malfunction in the unit separated from its factory, As I read, research has shown that family members benefit emotionally from connection to their clan and Mother. That our families of origin have the ability to give us an enhanced sense of well being. And a Mother, well it is well documented that a Mothers powers to heal are great. But somewhere along the way we got turned around with all this adopting, People don’t seem to understand the infinite and unbreakable bond of Mother and Child and the longer my Mother resists the more damage our bodies must repair each day we persist at this pace. But I am trying to bring my family that does not know shit about adoption and has not read one book about it, and they have two members who are adopted, up to speed. And it’s high time they get educated! I am back and here to stay so get with it. I have been learning you, those of you who allowed me too. So, learn me? That’s all. And pray for My Mother who is so confused and my family who’s confused too. And who are blocking the very cure, and answer. Because it doesn’t make sense to there christian minds even though God says in his word that his ways are not our ways and that we must trust. God has a good ending if folks can let go of the nightmares they hold dear inside those pretty little heads of theirs! Hello. I need a drink of water. That was a lot.
I don’t know what else to do but say this. My mental, physical and spiritual well being counts on this getting worked out. I get worse everyday and I can only feel that it is because of the delay of her coming around. My Mother relationships are most important to me. And my Mom and I are having the worst misunderstanding a Mother and daughter can have. Will you help me? Each person that heals, heals us all a little more. My Paypal is psychecafe@att.net. Thank you. I will be posting what is happening so all can share in this very important bridging that is going on right now. I am building a bridge for my Mothers and I to heal from separation. Thank you to those who are able to help me find the closer to the gap between my Mother and me. And to rebirth a new relationship with all three of us for we all are connected and its time to do this better, for all our good, not just the Moms. Kids matter too. I am drawing new lines and speaking new rules, I have found that we are not to break a bond like this ever. For it will cause trauma to both. End of discussion.
My Mom is blocking me, now does that look like love? Does that look like a natural thing? She cannot see her self in me and she’s there.

Mom’s rule, even when they think they fail. Will you help a child reunite completely with her Mom? I am risking it all to heal. I am accepting that my life is not worth shit with out my Mom to share it with. And I am talking about my Mom without her brain washing folks.

I am a part of a huge nation of people who have been separated from their families and we can do this, but it means doing what everyones telling us not to. Go forward and find her and don’t stop until its done. We have a birth right to our families.

I am willing to risk it all to try to get this done, to break through to brain washing. With Gods help I will. So support me please, as I risk all my comforts to work for change and healing for us all. I was brainwashed too. And stuck in the thinking expressed here. This is a very complicated process, and I am doing the best I can.

Everyone thinks that being nice gets you places, but thats just bull shit. To change, truly change you must become vulnerable, and exposed. For if people can not see the real you, the wounded you, how can they be a part of ones life, because we all hurt and have wounds, but some people are better at it than some. Excuse the fuck out of me for not doing it like you think I should! Support group my ass. I need to start one that’s real and raw, where we get to this shit and take care of it, instead of playing cake walk about it.

I am not Pollyanna, nor am Genghis Caun. I am just a girl who wants her Mom, and I have been trying to get through, but I get people calling me spoiled, and telling me to be respectful, but who respected me? Can you tell me how I was respected? Hell how was I protected? My heritage has been man handled and removed from me. My Mother is so turned around she does not even respond like my Mother, her brain washed with lies from society. Who protected me from the feelings of loss I felt only days old? Who respected my feelings of love for my Mother? Did she? No, but did anyone support her? Did anyone help her? She has gone through life feeling like I was a mistake? And who told her that? Did God? But somewhere she’s gotten it kind of messed up. For the truth is before us all.

Knowledgeable help is right here, in the truth I speak. For each day I feel relief, and my Mother would too. But there are all these people like the woman below who thinks she knows what is going on, enough so she tells me she does know and then gives me advise and then says I am spoiled. Wow, and we wonder how we all got like this. Woman so separated from themselves to not even feel that this could be them. But for the grace of God go we. And to feel what i feel right now, and to have the strength to stand up and say my true feelings and get shit like that, well, who’s the one with the issue? Not me, I am ridding myself of them right here, each post I purge, but those who don’t and make excuses why, are the ones left behind.

People say a lot of mean things to us for wanting our Moms. Especially our Moms, they don’t understand us kids. And that is kind of what i want to clear up. Cuz, I see it different. I see another way. But it involves the truth and a whole lot of soul searching, but we all do that anyway, here in the Adoption world. Nothing really make sense, and that is because it’s not supposed to.

NOW IS THE TIME!!! DO NOT OVERLOOK THE URGENCY OF THE MOMENT! ADOPTEES RISE UP!

WAKE UP! WAKE UP! WAKE UP! WAKE UP! WAKE UP! IT’S OUR TIME TO RIDE!

IT IS OUR TIME TO RISE UP AND DEMAND OUR RIGHT.

SILENCED NO MORE!

SLAVES TO NO ONE!

I will call it heinous. I know we all were taught to be polite and mind our manors. But Fuck that shit, We need to get REAL about ADOPTION!

SELMA, AL JULY 2, 2015 / OR WASHINGTON OR BOTH! 

http://www.thepetitionsite.com/250/831/901/give-adoptees-access-to-their-records-and-original-birth-certificates-nationwide/

For Adoptees this very teaching took on a very important place in our psyche. For we owed our lives to these strangers who showed up to raise us. But being in the dark about why and all of that has mad us angry. That is the reaction to hurt. And if someone could clear this up? Why should we have to carry this shit around for everyone? Just because you don’t understand? Is that my fault you are n to educated about this? Should I just go back into my shame cave for you? So you don’t have to look at it?

This how I feel about it. Hell is coming, and we are what y’all thought were so hellish. And our stories are a hell you placed us in. But did you see the badge, and no guns involved. But the balance must be brought. Fear is what has cone this to us, and fear must go! We can not longer hide your shame, for we are not ashamed at all! We are made by the same God as anyone else, to say different is stupidity. We are not the act, the deed that brought us here? NO we are not!

But it is time. Time to face this demon inside our heads. That’s where the issue lies, in ignorance and dilution.

They called down the thunder, and now it has reached the nostrils of God, and it smells like shit, because we are all trapped inside the shame caves of our Mothers Minds. They think we are mistakes and heinous as well. But they are so conditioned to think something else, that smells like BULLSHIT!

Come one people lets march! July 2, 2015 civil rights day. xoxo SILENCED SLAVES- THE ADOPTEE- IT IS NOW OUR TURN FOR FREEDOM.

IT IS TIME- IT IS TIME- 

THE SILENCED SLAVES

IT’S OUR TURN TO TALK. OUR TURN TO TALK

OUR TURN FOR FREEDOM

FROM THE STAIN THAT WAS PLACED ON US

BY AN ENERGY THAT RIPS AT THE VERY FABRIC OF OUR SOCIETY

THE AMERICA HAS GIVEN THE ADOPTED PEOPLE A BAD CHECK!

WE NEED TO CASH OUR CHECK ,TO GIVE US UPON DEMAND THE RICHES OF FREEDOM

In a sense we’ve come to our nation’s capital to cash a check. When the architects of our republic wrote the magnificent words of the Constitution and the Declaration of Independence, they were signing a promissory note to which every American was to fall heir. This note was a promise that all men, yes, black men as well as white men, would be guaranteed the “unalienable Rights” of “Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness.” It is obvious today that America has defaulted on this promissory note, insofar as her citizens of color are concerned. Instead of honoring this sacred obligation, America has given the Negro people a bad check, a check which has come back marked “insufficient funds.”

NOW IS THE TIME!

LORD, HEAR MY PRAYER! MAY WE MARCH LORD FOR OUR DAY. AMEN

By the way- THIS IS HOW I LET GO AND GET MY CLOSURE BABE! DEAL SELMA JULY 2, 2015

Give us what is ours. We played your game. Now we get our prize, the heritage you have kept from us. I guess you thought we wouldn't care. The joke is truly on you.

Give us what is ours. We played your game. Now we get our prize, the heritage you have kept from us. I guess you thought we wouldn’t care. The joke is truly on you. Photo by Jill Greenburg- Canada

Just some ramblings about how it feels going through this. please click below and take a listen.

DEAL, THIS IS HOW I AM GIVING MYSELF CLOSURE. I AM STANDING UP FOR MYSELF AND TELLING IT LIKE IT IS.

PLEASE SIGN THIS PETITION, SHARE IT AND GET YOUR FRIENDS TO DO SO. WE MUST BECOME AWARE PEOPLE. STOP MAKING IT OK? WE CAN DO BETTER? COME LIVE A DAY WITH THIS, YOU WILL BE WITH ME. IT FUCKING SUCKS THIS GRIEF, AND IT JUST KEEPS COMING. UNVALIDATED BY THE ONE WHO DID IT TO ME.

I KNOW I AM DEAD ON. CUZ SHE’S RUNNING FOLKS. YEP, MY BIRTH MAMA IS RUNNING FROM THE TRUTH. SHE’S TRIED TO SQUASH ME. BUT GOD WILL NOT HAVE IT. WE WENT TO THE FRONT DOOR, BUT WERE NOT WELCOME. SO GOD BROUGHT ME THROUGH THE BACK DOOR, BUT HE DID BRING ME THROUGH PEOPLE.

THIS IS AN ISSUE DEAR TO OUR DIVINES HEART. AND DON’T THINK THAT THE DIVINE HE/SHE IS NOT PERTURBED AT THE IGNORANCE WE CLING TO, WITH THE TRUTH STARING YOU IN THE FACE. YOU LUL YOURSELVES WITH SILLY FAIRYTALES.

LOOK AT WHAT YOU HAVE DONE! LOOK AT US, MANY, BROKEN, TRYING TO HEAL, MAMMED, DENIED, THROWN AWAY, CAST AWAY, RIPPED AWAY, TORN AWAY, KILLS, SQUASHED, SECRETS, ADOPTED

THE DAY OF RECKONING IS UPON US ADOPTEES. THE DIVINE HAS HEARD OUR CRIES, AND THE BALANCE MUST SWING IN OUR FAVOR NOW. HOLD TIGHT TO YOUR FAITH, GOD IS ABOUT TO BREAK US OUT.

YES, I AM YELLING! PLEASE PASS IT ON! EVEN IF YOUR FAITH IS SMALL. REMEMBER DEAR ONES, GOD ONLY NEEDS A MUSTARD SEED? NOW WHOS WITH ME? GODS GOT OUR BACK GUYS, I WILL LEAD THE WAY TO MAKE THEM LOOK AT IT.

MARCH IN SELMA JULY 2, 2015

INDEPENDENCE DAY! July 2, 1964 civil rights act was passed. I was one at the time. Now we need to march for our rights guys. Forget what they said. Forget making them happy. It’s time to throw this shit up. This is not about appreciation folks, it’s about awareness. And the scale of balance can not be swung on a sugar sweet overlay. Salt (truth) is what’s needed now.

 I WILL MARCH ALONE IF I HAVE TO. DON’T MAKE ME MAKE YOU LOOK BAD. I AM BOOKING MY FLIGHT TODAY.

WELL, MY HUSBAND WILL BE WITH ME, AND MAYBE MY DOG.

MARTINA MCBRIDE- PLEASE SING US FREE? THIS IS GOING TO BE AN EVENT LIKE NO OTHER! WE CAN ROCK THIS! PASS IT ON. COME ON, LET’S COME FROM OUT OF NO WHERE, AND SHOW THEM. YOU KNOW YOU WANT TO PICK THIS FIGHT! IT’S TIME TO POP THIS UGLY PUSTULAR PIMPLE FROM US! SO IT CAN OOZE AND HEAL, IT IS THE ONLY WAY MY PEOPLE! UNIT! OUR CAUSE HAS RIPPLED OUT INTO THE FABRIC OF SOCIETY AND PLEDGES OUR EVOLUTION!

LET US STAND ARM IN ARM, UNITED BY THIS ONE CAUSE, ADOPTION, FOSTER CARE, SEPARATION, TORN FAMILIES, CHILDREN WITHOUT A HERITAGE, GROWN CHILDREN WITHOUT PROPER DOCUMENTATION. UNACCEPTABLE!

ENOUGH IS ENOUGH! NOTHING WILL CHANGE WITH SUGAR? SALT IS WHAT JESUS TALKED ABOUT. AND WE ARE THE SALT THAT IS NEEDED, WE DECAY, SALT PRESERVES! SUGAR DECAYS! WE HAVE BEEN CONDITIONED TO SILENCE. IT IS OUR TIME. JUST BECAUSE WE ARE QUIET DOES NOT MEAN WE DO NOT HAVE A VOICE. AND OUR TIME IS NOW, TO RAISE OUR VOICES. WE NEED TO TELL OUR STORIES, SO THAT FUTURE GENERATIONS DO NOT SUFFER THIS VERY THING.

WE ARE THE CURE! WE WERE THE EXPERIMENT, AND NOW THE RESULTS NEEDS TO BE TALLIED. WE MUST REPORT OUR FINDINGS, OR THIS WILL CONTINUE.

WHO IS WITH ME? PASS IT ON, LETS SEE WHO REALLY WANTS TO MAKE A STATEMENT? LET’S SEE WHAT THE TRUE PULSE IS?

SHARE THIS POST ON THE MOUNTAIN TO RALLY THE TROUPS! WE ARE MANY MAY PEOPLE I HAVE BEEN IN THE TRENCHES WITH MANY SOULS, I SEE THE PAIN YOU BARE TO KEEP THE PEACE. YOUR EYES, I SEE YOUR SOULS AND I FEEL YOUR CRIES AS YOU LIVE IN YOUR SHAME CAVES, BECAUSE NO ONE WANTS TO REALLY KNOW HOW IT FEELS.