I sat myself down …

I drove. 403 miles. God. Told me to drive and go and see my own Mama. I had become troubled about my own Mama. And most people that know me? Know? I don’t get troubled. I confront troubles and overcome troubled. In Jesus name. I was also. Troubled about my youngest child? God was silent. And I felt like I was blind. Walking through some kind of darkness.

Like. What is this Lord? That seems to be eating at me? You know I love you lord and yet I know I was lead down many roads. Many of the roads I was lead down were not rosy. Being adopted is not a rosy road. Do you feel me today? It’s like dying the death of a rag doll your Mama don’t want to even play with anymore? Uck.

I’ve asked the lord many times. Why? And now get me right here. Not a poor me why? But why does this happen lord? Why. How can I learn all about this and help? Do something about it? Cuz I do t feel. That I drove all the way, 403 miles? Adds up to seven. And when you take my own Mamas address. House number+ plus street number and zip code? All of them add up to seven. A divine number. God is the god of numbers and is a bit OCD. Because God? Counts the grains of sand and the hairs on our heads! Crazy as that seems today while the world throws labels around.

God. Was troubled within me. Because my Mama was troubled. And in need of a course correction. Something was up. With Linda Marie. And God sent me to see about her. God sent me. Do you even know what that means? God. Made me spend my money that I had so little of, to drive 403 miles. Three times? Oh I feel the Lord on me today. While I smoke a cigarette and type down what’s coming to me. Yes. I’m smoking. And your opinion of me is none of my business. It’s gods business.

And I. Belong to god. The day. My Mama let go of me. Was the day God took me up. Oh the sweet sweet spirit of God cake over me that day. No words did I even have to speak. Peace be still child. I am with the always and to the end. Can you feel me? Do you understand the words I am typing here today? God. Took me up under gods wing. And said come child. I will teach you about me.

In this life God told me. Child. You will feel what I feel and see what I see. And you will learn about me and your Mama. The earth Mother. And your gonna feel some pain. For I feel pain. I feel a pain of separation child from me. From your Mama and my creations.

6 hours and 30 minutes my phone tells me is how long it takes to drive to my own Mamas house. God is the god of numbers. 9 is a number of completion times three. Which times three? Equals 27. 2+7=9. So didn’t matter? It was my time to complete a circle. Just like the pen my father gave my Mama. About me.

Being born and rejected by my own breeder. Taught me some lessons my Mama needed to see with her eyes and feel with her heart. To change her mind. About God and me. I was not a curse nor was I illegitimate. Below are the meanings of those two words placed as a label on me a child God made.

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And I know. Without a shadow of a doubt. The pain I have felt is not mine. For I was bought with a price by my brother Jesus on of the three. Jesus. The product of God the father and God the mother. Please hear me.

My Mamas husband. Born on the fourth day of October. Which is the tenth month of the year. Makes five. Balance and change all wrapped together. Five stands for change. 10 for new beginnings. Four for balance. Mama needed a change in her mind about me. Because God. Who made me made a damn good thing. And she need to see. God within me looking straight at her with her glasses, and bible verses and a radio playing Godly things.

How? Well you ask God that honey. All I know is what is and what God shows me. I’ll ask you this? Do you see God in yourself? Cuz if you can’t do that you ain’t gonna see God anywhere around here cuz your blind! I kind of laugh. Thinking about Jesus. Spitting and mixing dirt into mud and smearing on a man born blonds eyes and telling that man who’d waited to see for his whole life! Spit?

Now that a Mother juice. Every Mama spits on her hand and sets your hair straight or wipes of your face with spit. Don’t even lie and don’t tell me that ain’t true? Jesus mixed the two together and got a man to go wash his face of so he could see? Oh hear me now. Cuz we going deep today people. I’ve paid admission to this show. God paid for me to see too.

I am a preacher no ones ever seen. And I’ve worked in the trenches along side other preachers like me in the streets just like my brother Jesus. Helping folks see God in their lives. This body I ride in. Nothing more than spit mixed with mud and all kind of things. Gods using me in a powerful way to help us all get clean. Gods using me to make your mind see something those eyes can’t see in me. Can I get an amen?

We got to go within and clean up yesterday. I’ve felt such a pain. In the side of God within me. We need to get God right in our minds if we ever wanna see. Despise not the chastening of the lord for whom the Lord loves he corrects. Course correction honey. Gods the supreme GPS. And the supreme course corrector because, of Gods love. And we need some course correction today. For Mothers. Life bringers and friends. Jesus himself. While he hung on a tree said to his brother? John. Behold thy Mother.

John 19:25-29 (check the numbers here)

Behold Your Mother

25 <sup class=”crossreference” data-link=”(A)” data-cr=”#cen-NKJV-26851A” style=”box-sizing: border-box; font-size: 0.625em; line-height: 22px; position: relative; vertical-align: top; top: 0px”>Now there stood by the cross of Jesus His mother, and His mother’s sister, Mary the wife of <sup class=”crossreference” data-link=”(B)” data-cr=”#cen-NKJV-26851B” style=”box-sizing: border-box; font-size: 0.625em; line-height: 22px; position: relative; vertical-align: top; top: 0px”>Clopas, and Mary Magdalene. 26 When Jesus therefore saw His mother, and <sup class=”crossreference” data-link=”(C)” data-cr=”#cen-NKJV-26852C” style=”box-sizing: border-box; font-size: 0.625em; line-height: 22px; position: relative; vertical-align: top; top: 0px”>the disciple whom He loved standing by, He said to His mother, <sup class=”crossreference” data-link=”(D)” data-cr=”#cen-NKJV-26852D” style=”box-sizing: border-box; font-size: 0.625em; line-height: 22px; position: relative; vertical-align: top; top: 0px”>“Woman, behold your son!” 27 Then He said to the disciple, “Behold your mother!” And from that hour that disciple took her <sup class=”crossreference” data-link=”(E)” data-cr=”#cen-NKJV-26853E” style=”box-sizing: border-box; font-size: 0.625em; line-height: 22px; position: relative; vertical-align: top; top: 0px”>to his own home.

Placed into the care of the man he loved. His Mother. Who? Is John? If not my twin brother that died. Who’s been watching over my Mama? Make no mistake. John cares for my Mama. Because God made John too. And also took John up under Gods wing the day we both died a little when we three were separated from the womb of the woman I was made from. Now if you can’t get this? Well don’t talk to me. Go read your bible and get right with God. That’s ain’t my problem. It’s your minds problem. Not mine. You either want to learn or you don’t.

And it time to we higher in our minds first. Good programming is key. And Gods been watching us all and what has been put into the minds of us is needing an update. Gods word is alive and ever changing yet God, stays the same. Now trying to under stand that one.

Who tried to box god and place labels on He and She. For God is both. Who do we think the Holy Spirit is if not the feminine side of God? Yet? Time and time again? I’ve been told? That God is only a he? Does it not say we are made in the image and likeness of God?

Genesis 1:26

And God said, Let us make man in our image, after our likeness: and let them have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air, and over the cattle, and over all the earth, and over every creeping thing that creepeth upon the earth.

Let’s get this straight. Who? Was god even talking to? (Let us make man in our image and after our likeness if not Gods wife? No man does anything without a woman. This I know for sure. Without Mother Earth? We all would just be spirits floating around like Adams. You see that? Science. Adam and Eve. God incarnate. God in the flesh. Earth. Spit and dirt.

And our brains nothing more than clay and a whole lot of fat. Grease. Mixed with spit. We wanna call water. Their more than some river water inside of me. Am I making that mind of your think? Oh yes I am working that Grey’s anatomy called we. Gods a twister. A tornado. The rain. Can you see? You. Gods making your mind work and it hurts don’t it? Cuz perception is just a dream. God is all and all is god. Cuz god taken me where no man gone before inside of me.

What are you thinking right now? Better check yourself before you wreck yourself. Is it me? Or is God poking fun at your brains ability to comprehend such a concept as we? Where’s this going you might be thinking? Well? Where do you want to go is the question Gods asking? Do you wanna stay same old same old? Or do you wanna go somewhere else? Well. To go somewhere else means you got to change? For the truth you know is not the truth at all. The truth changes everyday unless you don’t change with it. Can you hear me? Hmm? Can you even see?

You can hear a story so many times you believe that is the only way to see it. No. How many disciples? 12. Added up? Makes three. 12 sides to the story it takes to see. Three sides to every story that’s we. Adam rubbed against Eve and then? We got three. To much to handle? Well go wash your brain so you can see what God trying to poke at. It’s not me doing the poking. It’s we. You came here to find something. Hell I don’t know what that is. But god does. Ask God within to show you what you need to see. Not me. I’m the Messenger sent from God through a woman to bring this to we.

What does psyche mean? In a cafe in the air that serves no coffee? Mind. Body. Spirit. We. Are you conscious? Are you a wake? Or a dead man walking down some green mile to deaths door? What is death anyway? Jesus? Did he die? Or did he transcend death? Do your math. Use that brain. And don’t pick on me. And please. Don’t kill this messenger who’s cloths are a woman’s. Please. Disrespect the light is a no no. It’s god lighting up your brain not me. I’m the mess ender sent from Linda Marie.

Did you catch up there I. The text that while Jesus hung on a tree? Three Mary’s stood by? Watching his body die? And his spirit go free? Who found the tomb empty? They? Who were they?

Luke 24:2 ( that equals 8) infinite possibilities

Remember that one. For sure. Mental notes are key to success in ones studies.

They found the stone rolled away from the tomb,

Let go back a minute. You better learn to grease the shell of your mind. Quick. Cuz gods moving in a powerful way. All these men thinking they even know why gods been saying! Gonna change?

Luke 24:1

On the first day of the week, very early in the morning, the women took the spices they had prepared and went to the tomb.

Does it say woman there? Holy shit! It does? The men were probably hiding. From their own head wound to the egos. Riding on the coat tail of king thinking all glory we gonna die or something. Worried. But the woman knew what to do. Women. We. God made Jesus without a mans consent? Defied the church rules and lead Mary astray! Can you read that loud and clear? Or is your brain still regurgitating yesterday’s mail?

Jesus addressed a woman before his body gave way? And a bunch of woman. Treated like dog by society? Tended his grave! No man found until later. They could not believe? Failed to see what was what with the she? Oh hear me now. I’m poking. But your gonna have to do the work. The table has always been spread but you got to know what to eat. Now let’s see.

Matthew 28:1-10
Now after the Sabbath, as it began to dawn toward the first day of the week, Mary Magdalene and the other Marycame to look at the grave. And behold, a severe earthquake had occurred, for an angel of the Lord descended from heaven and came and rolled away the stone and sat upon it. And his appearance was like lightning, and his clothing as white as snow. The guards shook for fear of him and became like dead men. The angel said to the women, “Do not be afraid; for I know that you are looking for Jesus who has been crucified. He is not here, for He has risen, just as He said. Come, see the place where He was lying. Go quickly and tell His disciples that He has risen from the dead; and behold, He is going ahead of you into Galilee, there you will see Him; behold, I have told you.” And they left the tomb quickly with fear and great joy and ran to report it to His disciples. And behold, Jesus met them and greeted them. And they came up and took hold of His feet and worshiped Him. Then Jesus said to them, “Do not be afraid; go and take word to My brethren to leave for Galilee, and there they will see Me.”

Here we go. Two woman? What’s the Bible day? Here. This is what it says.

Here we go.

Matthew 18:20 New International Version (NIV)

20 For where two or three gather in my name, there am I with them.”

So do the math. Two woman? Gathered? At a tomb and who was there? I am was there mother truckers. Am I was there to be precise. Doesn’t matter in what order I am or am I. God was the third person as the tomb that bright morning they found the tomb free of debris. Must have been a woman that took his body away cuz a man didn’t I’ll tell you that! Everyone know how a real woman cleans.

Oh? Did you want me to cut up that steak? In nice little pieces so you would choke on it? Well Mama ain’t playing honey. You need to learn how to work a fork and knife on your own to eat bread from heaven.

Bone of my bone and flesh of my flesh. Your minds been under arrest. And it’s time we use the truth like a knife to get free and barf up yesterday’s mail so new mail can get in. We call it delete. New downloads are coming in from God. So move over Mother I am going faster than you can drive. Where is the body of Christ if not we?

Did you see what the angel told those woman to do? Go quickly and send the message to the men folk? Oh please. Wasn’t a man around when the earth quaked, but two woman could see? Now we all better do our math and prove it if we ever wanna see? Gods not containable by a body?

And we still ain’t got it? Cuz we all are killing each other? Wars and rumors of wars by ignorant brothers. And now woman are fighting along side? Delusions grandeur growing inside the minds of people that know not of the we I AM!

You better check yourself before you wreck yours. I am the almighty. Alpha and omega. You better not kill the woman typing these messages. Or all hells gonna break loose. I can erase all of you with one fell swoop! Including her body. Why don’t we try to get these lessons right now? Woman are key. Jesus did not walk the earth for any other reason than a dumb woman who trusted God allowed God to Uber shadow her and believe! A woman! A precious being that’s been treated like a dog and a breeder and denied respect! That’s she has earned with her blood and her sweat! Oh please. Can you see?

Now? Linda Marie who came fro

Two Mary’s before? I am upon the. I am in the daughter you disagreed with me on who’s she should be! For I the sovereign God took her under my wings to soar with the Eagle that is we. The great I am is who speaks to the through the child that came from me. You doubt me? Block me? Hide from me. No one else.

I own the airways! I own the roadways. I am the great! I AM. BOW TO ME.

For on the day that you conceived it was I who over shadowed you. No other. And planted my seed in that belly and grow you a seed that is now a great tree that grew in the shadows of my great wings. Close to my heart. Just like you did honey. Are you gonna pass your own test is my question? And pick up the phone and begin addressing what’s what in your mind of minds that needs some undressing? And see the glory that came out of your belly as a blessing?

End of transmission. I’ve got other fish to fry honey. My people are hungry and starving. And your nose is in a book instead of with your own daughter. You need to look up higher. The fields are white and ripe for a harvest and you nose is in a book. Learn your lesson! Faith with WORKS IS DEAD. YOUR A DEAD WOMAN RUNNING IF YOU CANT EVEN LOVE GOSS CHILD THAT CAME DOWN FROM-HEAVEN.

ACCEPT YOUR GIFT!! NO MORE EXCUSES.

That’s includes you the reader. Don’t even.

psychecafe

I am an Adapted, artist, Mother, a soul, a human, singer, writer, activist, minister and deprogrammer and reprogrammer of minds. And I am here because we need to change how you see it, a lot of things that is. For us Adoptees who have lived in the dark. We were cut off from our families. And that is sad people.

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