I had to go there to figure out where I really stood with my own family….Now, I know..
I actually thought? I was not here.
I hoped, that my Mama would understand… But, she didn’t.
And now at least I know where I am.
And understanding the woman I came from is very difficult. Like? I just don’t get her.
And, she, does not get me. Nor? Does she even want to get me.
What I learned also, was who I am with is very much loyal to me…..
So I see adoption with new eyes now.
I see Mama Jean in a new way now. And its like all that Linda Linda Linda stuff is just fading away…….
And, that not what I expected, but I am relieved.
I know where I children stand as well…
So the whole experiment has proven to be very illuminating to me.
Because I did not see everyone like I could, and now, I see way better and a better grasp of my place….
It was painful to go through. That is true. And I did not hide any of my shock and dismay…..
Its ok… Everyones got a right to feel how they feel….
Mama Jean at the end of this experiment, passed with flying colors…
And for that…. I AM GRATEFUL…