So I totally understand Mama has blocked me because I was raised by a woman who jumped into a bottle who’s Mama jumped into a bottle. So? Dealing with it is not a thing in this family. Avoidance is how I was taught to deal. Stuff it. Was how everything was dealt with.

There was no room for me to express myself. So I ended up barfing it up here because neither of my Mamas could even help support me through my own dark night.

That’s the truth.

And if you think that’s bad? It’s on you not me. Because I know. Mama Jean did the best she could and my own Mama can’t even say thank you.