Your brain works like mine? It takes time and a back story to understand.
Just because I’ve been quiet most of my life about my feelings does not mean I didn’t have them. When you are born into a world gone mad, it takes time and observation to find the best approach to addressing the madness.
My Mama is seeing that she gave birth to a thinker and a visionary. Deep thinking is needed when your adopted which meant to me cut off from my Mama and family.
Adoption is death style removal where all are still living. Which is cruel. And ignorant. It’s such an insane idea shrouded in lies that make it look true and lovely. And that is what my truth debunks and demystifies.
Adoption is a sick kind of love that denies all involved of something and opens wounds of something else that will not heal unless unity is applied as a practice. Yes. A practice. Why? Because denial and separation have been practiced longer and the tide must change for healing to flow in.
Adoption is at best a sad bandage to a hemorrhage of an idea that conception is shameful in any form? It just is. Children should not be made to pay for sins that do not exist in God’s eyes, just ours. Why would god wish a child to pay? Again and again and again like Moses when the clear offender is the mindset that got us here? Which comes from church doctrines, rules? To which there is no law but love. And defies Adoptions idea all together.
Humans created adoption. God created humans. We are the ones throwing babies around trying to get around our own mindsets from past programming. Which is insane. And I had to pay for that bad programming by living a life without my Mama due to how I was conceived? That’s messed up. I had to grow up and survive this treatment to be able to express my feelings here.
I had to find the words and learn my way out of what is a lie. I was always my Mamas child. Just denied my Mama. That’s messed up. And. My Mama was lead to believe that was best. Which is a lie too. Best for whom? Adoption is the best we have got? In 2019 children still must be given to strangers to have what adoption calls a good life?
It’s selfish. Adoptive parents are selfish to take a baby from its family and call that good. Selfish is what it is. Greedy and cruel to the child denied everything by birthright that is theirs, so they can have something that’s not there! Talk about a human rights violations!
Yeah. And no one gives a flying flip! Well you will when it finds you. If I can be stripped of my rights so easily? Then so can you darlings.
A little leaven leaveneth the whole lump is what it says. Little folding of the hands. Wisdoms coming for us all whether we like it or not. Trillions of Adoptees. Voices will ring. It’s time for a child to be safe, trafficked no more. Adoption is trafficking. Plain and simple.
I felt trafficked. Stolen. Bound. Held against my will. And I won’t say I did not. It caused me so much inner conflict. I naturally wanted my Mama, and unnaturally was denied her. With her consent and blessing! Sick beyond sick!
I’m glad I’ve got a good brain that thinks every which way. All angles. I needed this brain to help me survive such a hit at two days old. I needed this brain to help me help Mama wake up and my family.
Adoptions like being marooned on an island for years and you come home and your family has moved on as if you are dead and all you’ve thought about was them to survive. Coming home to that feels low and you feel unappreciated for all your loyalty they never saw over even asked about?
Without this brain I’d be dead. I’m grateful I made it and can function. Many can’t. Xox