When you ask for the help you want and need. No one listens. No one comes when you call.
No one gives a shit. That’s is what I’ve experienced since birth. I cried and screamed at my birth. No one even heard or understood me.
And now that I am old enough to form my words. No one wants to hear it.
Oh. But of course it’s me. It’s all my fault of course. I said it wrong. I didn’t act right. I’m the one to blame again and again for not doing anything right.
What. Do I do. I’ve given my all to this for both my Mothers and in the end of this day? What did I get. Silence. Refusal to even hear me. Me.
The child this was supposed to help was denied. And my kids wonder why I am not ok?
Like just snap out of it? Be all cheery. When Mothers don’t get you life is dreary.