man i cried so hard on this one.
It just goes so deep? I especially love how his Mom began to say she was sorry and what he said to her? My Mama still struggles with that and it makes it so hard to express myself cuz that sorrow gets in my way.
Not everyone gets it like this. It doesn’t mean that it any less meaningful. We all just react differently. I was more in shock and it’s taken me years to express all I felt. And much of what I felt was tangled up and surrounded with lies.
It was not easy protecting my love for Mama. Especially from her. She has appeared to feel unworthy of such a love. What else would keep her from me. I felt such compassion for the Mama who was so upset at what had happened. And I do want to say to my Mama too. Please. Let’s not waste anymore time on sorrow.
That’s why I tore it all down. Cuz the foundations all that matters. The rest was what the world said about it. This is our story and we can write way more pages filled with love. And we can show the world that’s the devil didn’t win with us.
My love is deep inside me where no one can take it. The world may have taken my Mama. But they can never take my love for her. Never. My Mama needed to know this. My love is real. And it’s for her. Alone. I’ve saved every drop. Just like God saved her tears and mine. To pour into her heart to fill it again with the love I cake to give her back in 1963.
We gonna be ok Mama. We are ok now. If you can just believe. Just believe Mama. There’s no need to hide. I’m not ashamed of you? I know how hard it was Mama? Our paths may have lead away from each other for a long time Mama. But I’ve been loving you still. And praying for guidance from God to make this right with us.
Please be my valentine Mama. Forever. I love you true and blue. It is hard to believe that you could kick yourself so hard? And that a piece of you would come back and kiss it. I love you. Let me keep loving you please. Don’t deny this love anymore Mama. Please.