I’m being as respectful as I can. My Mama needs to know I give a lot of shits about her damn it.

And I do feel Mamas feeling alone. And Phil’s visiting me. Talking to me about Mama. And Gran Gran keeps telling me to not stop and to keep going. I don’t know why? Except what I feel. Unity.

And yes. It scares me? To have this gift. But I’d rather tell Mama Phil’s telling me he loves her and to stop feeling alone when he’s not left her side! And it gets jumbled up with my own feelings of never leaving her side. Grandma Margaret. Who’s spirit is so gentle keeps telling me to not give up. And now Papa Gerald.

And I do feel Mama knows why. I’m feeling this way. I do.

oh. And auntie O. Said not to forget what she taught you Mama.