Is Adoption answering a cry? Or denying a cry?

Who do children cry for? Is a stranger the solution for a child? Does it satisfy the cry? Or. Is Adoption just a scam that promises something that’s not possible?

Was I denied what was mine by birth right?

Yes.

Did a stranger make it better? No. You can’t make that better.

A stranger had to make her own way with me just like I had to make my own way with her.

There’s no way to reverse what’s been done.

But there are many new ways we can do it from now on.

Adoptions not black and white. There are no absolutes in Adoption except loss. Absolute was thrown out the window with the child.

My Mama needs to understand that Mama Jean has earned what was freely given to my Mama. Mama broke my trust in anything. And she’s seen the affects my whole life.

That’s probably why she did not want me to meet Mama. She did not want Mama to undo all her hard work with me. Which is impossible. She worked hard. That’s what love does. Even second hand love. Second hands best. Except now my Mama doesn’t want their hand?

She seems upset at Mama Jeans work with me? I tell ya, Adoption sure leaves a lot to the imagination of everyone involved. Except the child. I could imagine way better than this kind of reunion.

My inner child can want Mama all day long. And she will til my last breath. And I’ve shown how much I care and am upset by our separation to no avail.

And beyond that. I mean at the root of it all is Chelsie Lynn. It has upset me to no end that she’s not talking to me. It’s upset me to know end my own Mama has done nothing to help us work this out? But it’s shown me the truth. Good on you Chelsie. Good on you.

Being abandoned by your Mama is bad enough. But being abandoned by your own daughter who should know? Is very painful. But. She’s can do what she wants. It’s her birthright to act any old way she wants. And I pray that when she has kids her child won’t do this to her. I don’t want that for her.

That’s why I am working to fix this with my Mama. Like I didn’t start this separation thing. She did. But so what. Who started it. I want to end it. End separations.

Does family really stick together? Like I’m

Not seeing that?

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