This post is for Mama.

And this woman’s a therapist. Licensed therapist. And she’s using the cards to bypass the ego. The Ego gets programmed a certain way. And when God’s healing something the Ego can get in the way of we don’t see that part of ourselves.

That I am writing this? Means I must look at my ego too. And I’ve shown my Ego. And the programming of the Ego from childhood. What I received along the lines of programming and also what I passed along to my kids due to programming. Programming I am confronting and allowing God to change.

Expressing feelings that are is not gonna keep anyone in the same feelings. It allows what is to come up and out for a new feelings a better feeling to emerge. I am working with my Mama to help her do the same as me. Purge that shit.

And if I can express all the garbage I expressed and still be forgiven and have grace cover me? Then Mama can too. Which means when she lets it all out. All she’s trying to say is not there. And which this blog proves there is. How?

Because I am writing about it as it happens. Blow by blow. Inch by inch coverage of healing happening. Healing doesn’t mean we ever forget. Healing means we learned the lesson. And due to learning the lesson we move away from the pain. A scare is always visible. And memories of pain can be recalled. Just like I am recalling mine to show Mama the way.

Yes. To show you Mama. I don’t want ya like this. And I care enough to stand up and say so. I don’t care if you gave me away. I was always your daughter still. It’s was just geography.

I do want you to express yourself. Yes. Say it. Speak. Express. Like your 80. You’ve earned it. And it doesn’t make you weak to let it all out. Letting it all out shows how strong you’ve had to be.

Why should we allow anything to get in our way? Why would we allow our flesh to continue to divide us like this? If God is God and we are Gods Children then we are able. To go around this mountain, to speak to this mountain and it shall be cast in the sea. But we got to get up and do what the word says? Or our faith is dead.

Mines alive and kicking in California. Where’s yours Mama? And what can I do to help besides write my guts out to you here? Maybe it has been a while. Maybe we both have been turned around? Maybe it’s not to late? Maybe for God it’s never to late? Maybe. It’s right on time and now you truly are ready for this? And maybe. Just maybe. God’s got blessings in it for us all? It’s maybe.

Jer. 29:11 states. And we righter believe God or we done Mama. This is where your rubbers meeting the road. And I am calling you out of hiding. Damn it. Your light must shine.

11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Now Mama. Read this and please let it get into your soul. That word is true. And what is going on with us and this word here telling us both what’s ahead?

I may be crazy and unorthodox. But I know how to weave a fine story of redemption when I follow the greatest story maker of all time. God.

And yes. I get impatient. I’m not gonna lie. Yes. I get impatient. I am 56! How long Mama? How long?

Psalm 13 English Standard Version (ESV)

How Long, O Lord?

To the choirmaster. A Psalm of David.

Have you not given? Mama? Have you not given to God for God? Yes. I’ll answer. You have.

God has not forgotten you. You’ve forgotten God if we are like this. Remember. And read this. God’s trying to bless us all. Stop over thinking this. God’s ways are not ours. And if we knew it all faith would be useless.


I am an Adapted, artist, Mother, a soul, a human, singer, writer, activist, minister and deprogrammer and reprogrammer of minds. And I am here because we need to change how you see it, a lot of things that is. For us Adoptees who have lived in the dark. We were cut off from our families. And that is sad people.

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