I need no approval.

I am approved. By our Mama. Each time I went to see her last year? She. Let me in. She. Yes.

She made coffee for me. To drink. Yes me.

But this is the thing. About Mama. That maybe folks don’t see? She wants everyone to be happy for her? Yes. She does.

I can keep going up and visiting her. And also keep putting up with rude interruption from delusional family members trying to make our relationship appear sick and twisted?

A mother and daughter always love each other. And it’s none of anyone business!

Mama was upset about me finding her cuz she knew you all would pitch a fit? I’m issue? Except to all of you.

Mama. Will always love me? And why can’t you all just be happy for her? Take more than one to make a relationship work. And after 56 years of living? I think it about time Mama gets what she really wants and not this shit show!

Lord knows she prayed, given, and worked her spirit to the damn bone! And I’ve come three times!! Step up! Why is it my job? Only? Is not our Mama our Mama?

You think she’s happy I’m not welcomed? Do you think? She’s happy about us like this? Yeah. I’m standing up for her? No one did back in the day? Except a baby crying? Who now grown with words to speak for her. Yeah.

And I’ve told all my dirty whatever to show all of you a little something? I was abandoned! And I am not abandoning her now!! Nor have I ever! So?

What’s your excuse now? What keeps all of you so silent? Or blabbing shit that does not get Mama closer to where every Mama wishes to be which is to her own child? Even if she abandoned me?!

She never let go!!

It’s not approval I seek. It’s humility I seek. As you bow in respect to our Mamas love child who fought hard to pray her way home. It’s standing in the street of the world, as the world watches all of you turn away from what our precious, Mama made!

Yeah. Better check yourselves. Look again. Mama needs me. You may say you don’t? But did ya ever consider her feelings? Did you? As much as she loves all of you she loves me. And she will have your blessing. Yes. She will.

And whoever’s in the way will bow. Before her in apology. Cuz you thinking I speak for myself do ya? Look again. I know who my queen Mama is? Do you?

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