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Mama and I have been working through the sages Of grief. After Phil passed it hit here. All of it. And it’s been intense for her. We are now at acceptance stage. When we truly began last year on her first visit and she told me I was angry, which told me she was at anger stage in her grief process. Which then meant I had to work on angry issues that pledged us both. And us all for that matter.
Mama was not happy with her results from Adoptions affect in either of us? She didn’t have the worlds. Only feelings. Very strong feelings. She’s been upset about the family’s reactions? Of how thy can’t seem to see? We doing work here? Real work? And she proud of me for singing the bells to her? Yes. Proud of her girl.
Cuz I’m dishing it up? Like what she knew? With words now! And I am chirping like the canary I came from wants me too! Sound the alarm she’s saying to me? To my soul? Like baby. I can’t do this for us. I can now see? It’s. Epic. It’s phenomenal!! A bond like no other!
And the thing is? I knew it all along? Felt it with no worlds all along as God showed me when I came home how strong? To the bleach under the sink? To the kitchen aid mixer and kitchen gadgets up the wazoo! Why do I take pictures of my Mama house? To illustrate our connection? How proud I am of who she is? To celebrate such a strong bond?
How? To do the work helping my Mama heal from it? I saw that from the first day she came into my humble home on 13th street which is a four and the day she got her fourth leg back? And how my babies loved her? Called her name to her? Gramma? And my heart just burst. As she stood dumb founded. Starting at all the love? Feeling it wash her soul clean? Not a speck of shame did she feel? From us?
But? I saw it in her? I felt it. Because I to had heard it all. And I had to go to work at some point to confront that with her when she needed it. Mama did not expect that at all. And began to back Peddle that day on all she has thought about me? It’s not been easy. She’s been freaked out for years about how much I love her?
I had to work to help her find the root of the shame to cut it clean. Spiritually speaking. It’s karmic work of the highest order. I refuse to let my Mama or anyone! Cast shade on her another day. I shade her now. A whole nother shade. If I can shade her under the tall tree I am now? Then no one can cast shade on her again.
She’s stood out in the elements long enough! I’ve turned the other cheek. And stand ready to embrace all of you. And grief is a lesson we all have learned this lifetime for sure. As my sister see what they have grieved with our Mama the whole time? The whole time like a low solemn tone of reverence for the loss our Mama suffered?
Listen. The woman wants what she wants! And she gets what she wants! Just do it! Nike! Just do it. Phil wants it. Gramma Gerald wants it. Jack, Huey, Elmer,Art, Arthur Leroy, Gran Gran. And God all want this. For Mama! The win!