They don’t want to even know me. Neither of them. It’s Christmas and you would think? They would give a shit about who I am? But no.
The proof is here. And my kids cut off from me? Believing god knows what? That I don’t give a shit about her? How can I? Blocked?
Rrrrrr! Makes me so angry. To deal with such ignorance. My A Mother said, “all you can do is talk about Adoption”. Yeah. Why? Has anyone listened to me? Am I feeling respected? No. Why do I have to keep listening to her say she want me to go away. Except when she want to blather about something I’ve heard 100 times? All her shit.
Relationships go back and forth. mama should me that. But my A Mom just likes to put me down and say vulgar things to me like I am some trash can of hers and when I want to talk about what I am interested in and doing? Which is advocating for Adoption change? And this is what I get. Go away. I wish you would leave. How should that make me feel as a orphaned child? So entitled.
I believe like this? I would not subject my Mama to even meeting such a woman who is not acting very grateful for her gift?
Here. This is what I am treated like. Yeah. I’m not happy? That iPad? I have to her? Mama? You tell me why I want to come home?
Is this the mother you were told I would get? Is this good enough for your flesh and blood? And if not? Maybe that’s why I am acting so weird? Maybe being treated like this for so long has affected me? Why should she give a shot about me? She got what she wanted. And made me play here quiet game for years!! Like a dog.
Does this woman’s actions look like what you think is happening to your daughter? Does this woman look like she is appreciative of your gift? This. Is where you sent me? Is this what you wanted me to be treated like Mama?
Like wow. Wow.