Mama…

I just want you to know. I mean like breathing know. That I am praying for you. I am praying for you highest good. I am and will always be on your side. Even if I don’t agree with you always? I still show up to work to understand?

Do you realize how much I love you Mama? My love is not a love of an earthly form Mama? It’s boundless? Like God’s love? It is God’s love for you Mama? Right inside of me?

I want you to visualize it. See God’s love within me. See that the world and along the way somethings were just gathered around that love for you. Like challenging information like I’ve shared with you? Which affected my Mindset? Stay with me. It’s hard to explain. It’s a completely different way to look at the mind and heart? How god’s doing a work in me and showing you. So that you can learn and be wise as well. About my. Your precious daughter whom you love quite deeply.

And back to the heart. And God’s love within it. And how stuff just got wrapped and tangled around that heart? Lies. Junk. Habits. Behaviors. Coping mechanisms. That actually protected that love? Like thrones? I’ve had to feel this my whole life and yet to seek understanding to even be able to describe it. To you. My Mama.

I don’t care what anyone says. A child always thinks of her Mama and goes back to remember her words and guidance. Proverbs even states that we must wrap them around our necks! Our throats. And I am going to work out my Mama issues with you!! So you!! Can get to the other side to see!! How amazing this love for you is!! It gushes!! And I share it with everyone I know!! It’s glorious!! It’s beyond what this girl’s mind could understand? So I let my heart just take over? I just let my body go. Gave my thoughts about you and my hurt feelings about the lies spoken to me while you lived on without me. To God.

And God held them and caught all the tears as I witnessed what the world thought about you! And this love? Would not believe!! And God told me to tell you. To trust our connection is strong enough to make our connections open wide open. So that even here? That you would feel it there? And Mama. I’ve secretly loved you for years. You’re always been my secret crush.

And I want you to get ready if your not already feeling the flow of abundance coming Mama!! Fresh waters flowing towards you through me. I’ve busted the damn of emotions that held your mind captive playing a role

No longer befitting such a woman as you?

Like this is a total upgrade. With all skeletons out of their respective closets. A clean slate. And babygirl cleaned it for you!!

I am that good. Loud and proud here Mama!! I’ve worked to be able to say that. This ain’t no cheap shot circus show here Mama? This is healing on all levels. Mind body and soul!! The trinity in motion! Made in God’s image and likeness. Being used!! Like Jesus, yet not. A student of Jesus working and walking out her Jesus mindset!

Following God is fun!! That’s what happened to me when I was gone from you? I learned to connect to God. And god loves me so much. Which tells me God loves you so much! God is the party line operator Mama. And taught me how to connect deeply with your energies

I don’t care what anyone else thinks. This is about a Mother daughter connection that’s amazingly electric. Our connection is Hollywood worthy. And God is our agent for change. And we are already famous. No need to beg for anything.

Gramma R channeled divine messages Mama? I remember the letters she would send me? And that’s a gift? A precious gift? Those letters are guidance. That’s why I asked about them? To tell you to read them? When I feel something this strongly? I know? It’s God telling me to speak up? Because our relationship was stagnant.

And I feel so strongly about our connection. I would have dropped this long ago if this was not a strong feeling? And I admit. I fight it? I faith to surrender to my own will? But I don’t like messes either. And someone’s got to do something about this relationship? Hell yes! We are making the new script up as we go. Guided by the word and Jesus. Jesus is the agent for change.

Jesus turned tables over and was killed? For doing what? Telling his truth? Yeah? Yeah? Did you notice that little truth? About truth? And not rocking the boats? And casting nets on other sides of the boat? About feeding many using a child’s lunch to cause folks to unite and give so all could eat? It’s deep. Jesus was intelligent and submitted to the highest good.

Intelligent people are multi level thinkers. They are forward thinkers? Jesus was and is a forward thinker. Jesus changed it back in the day and we are still learning more and more within the scripture. To see, love is the lens we look through. Not mushy love? Strong love. Alive love. Growing love. Expanding love. Revelational love.

Did you think me a weed back in the day?

And did you pluck me from your garden of life?

It’s ok.

Back in the day people didn’t know!

What a weed is for!

And excuse me for being so big and strong?

Like most weeds are?

I just grew back to my root to let you know?

Your a weed too

Please stop cutting yourself off.

It’s killing your soul

So just put down that knife

And realize dear woman

I grew back to

Take that knife away

And help you heal.

It’s ok. This loves got you.

Just breath.

I’ve got you.

Now.

I’m stitching you up.

And kissing the places of the boo boos.

You’ll be better than new now Mama. I made it through this journey without you and still love you. Lol.

It is God. It is.

This nightmares over.

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