This video is spot on. And my anger was boiling after coming home with my high standard. And no one even gave a shit about being what we are which is family. Like I get family ties more than my own family does? And my Mama can just be upset and sulk like a child. Go on. Sulk Mama. It’s so fashionable and classic.
I need my family to get that about me even if I may never, go to see them again. I may not. I really can’t stand lies because I had to live a lie my whole life when I knew who I was from was not who I was with. And my Mama was just like, yeah, let’s just not meet. She was like, I’m good. Yeah no. And that people? Is fucked up. My Christian language won’t express that in the words they tell you to say that are acceptable to God and the church standard.
Fucked up is the only word that describes coming home to such a mess. So family if your even reading this? Go fuck yourself. You thought I was crawling to you? Ha ha! The one good thing you did Mama dear was to give me to Mama Jean. Beyond my childhood longing for you? She stayed. She held on. She loved beyond what your ass can do. So. Thanks.
You have not cut the mustard with me dear family. Nope. I am a Capricorn who’s lived without you and most everyone’s family to me. So? Yeah. You missed my boat when it went by cuz your camps stinks and you’ve got fleas and I simply can’t deal with such slovenly Christian behaviors. So. Yeah. Good luck with that task. My patients is gone. And I surely don’t need some half ass people gumming up my life with yesterday’s news cuz they don’t know how to practice Christ.
For 20+ years I loved you. For 30? I loved you. So for 55 years I’ve loved your sad asses. And now? I’m sailing away. To a better day. Cut free from a genetic tie that God just helped me cut. I got all the good qualities and turned the bad ones into gold. And if Chelsie like you? Well? Good. Your gonna need her someday. Maybe she’ll be there. I don’t know? When she finally sees and recognizes, all your actions towards me are so fucked up too? She’s clean your clocks. Trust and believe. She loves her Mama.
I know that deep within. Cuz I love mine even if she’s a messed up mental case of a woman who’s a hermit and can’t seem to clean up what she started and leaves it to a woman with no Instructions? Lol. Hide in your bible. Go on.
Life is about challenges and you all suck at that shit. Bunch of pansies that wilt in the noon days sun. Chelsie Lynn? I have no idea what your seeing honey buns, in these folks? But God bless you baby for being a light in their dark world. I love you dearly. And I am so proud of you for getting yourself sorted out and not making me clean your life up. You learned how not to be like my Mama and that’s a good thing doll. Props to you.
Adoptions a three sided thing. I’ve waited years to speak my mind and the mind of the child who had to wade through such a mess of an idea. Mama Jean did pretty good. I’ve seen how my Mama handles things and I kiss the ground that woman walked on to come get me out of such a low place of being born from to take me to a place of unconditional love sent from God. And my Mama can read all day and night and will never reach the heights of love I have experienced from the Mama she gave me too.
So Go! Go on. Get. Off the porch of my mind and take your raggedy ass back to the hole I drug you out of to put you on display and show the world about. Go. Pray some more go on and talk to whoever your talkin too. You’re gonna need the grace I talk about when you stand before your king and account for your actions about rejecting me, his child. I’ll probably get a front row seat to the karma show. Cuz you’ve asked for a ass whipping for blocking God.
Bye. God bless.
I forgive you. But I simply don’t need some ignorant idiots who can’t practice their Christian virtue with around me. We never even prayed about this? Lord. Help my family and thank you for cutting the unhealthy ties to such a bunch of people. I won’t take back a word of how this has made me feel and if you want to hold onto yesterday’s trash? I can’t stand the smell? So keep it. Go on. Keep it and hold onto it. Cuz I’m done with all of you. Done. You can come find me? Maybe I’ll answer. But I am pretty sure I just won’t go there. You’ve had plenty of time to get with it. I’ve got a life to live. And this shits not going with me and neither are any of you for that matter. Boundary. Now you feel what I felt. Good.