Here it is. What I did.

The card set us called Medicine Cards, written by Jamie Sams and David Carson. Both authors are of Native American descent.

Check them out by clicking the link below:

Medicine Cards: The Discovery of Power Through the Ways of Animals

Cards are a fun way to find the answers you need, and positive direction for your life path. With the attitude of curiosity, they can open your mind to healthier ways to cope and find strength and directions. The word divination say it all about using cards to get messages form the Divine who if we believe the scriptures to be true an accurate, has not only lived as Jesus, but as us all. Now that’s a mind blower.

This books written by members of the wolf clan have devised a method of divination, or way to communicate with the divine, through the animals.

I felt drawn to go get some more of the decks I was lead to purchase for study and enjoyment in learning this safe way to communicate with God and the angels. And this is what I read and it’s like God just gets me to read what I need to express and validate what I know to be true, but many deny.

My bond with Mama was this strong and she yelled to me and blames it on Barbara Marie. Thanks you Barbara Marie for helping Mama when I needed her strength and her brain was a pancake. I am so very moved when Mama talks about you. I am eternally grateful she has such a good friend as you in her life. I owe you that in the least. But do hope to meet you some day, so I may say it properly and in person. Xo

The part I circled here above shows exactly what I did as a child. I was lost and I did as a native child would do and drew on my parents energy for strength. I also pulled on my Daddy’s. A lot. I needed a lot of make energy to feel safe. That’s why I say Mama didn’t share her brain with Barbara Marie, Barbara Marie helped mama on days when I was pulling hard on her strength. It’s so spiritual and beautiful. Once the shock wears off. I moved in sync with Mama and drew from her spiritual strength and it made me very strong spiritually.

Mama pulled some strings for me on her knees. I see that. Thanks you Mama for praying for me. I accept that most precious gift and claim it as a blessing from you. Here in front if everyone. Thank you Mama. Xo

Your alright. I like you. And after all this time, it’s still, “you’ll do just fine”. Xo. Very fine.

Takes a lot to calm a storm like me. But you do from the ship on my emotions. You speak to the storms and dive deeper into God to drag me there with you. Thank you. Bless you.

See. Change can sneak up on you. And slap you in the face with it because times a wastin’ girly. We got things to do and see and experiences with each other’s. This old trash heap has it coming. Damn adoptions not going to mess up the party. Cus we are family, and together at last. I’m the loud one. Lol. And proud.

And I want to slobber all over Chelsie’s face! Need me some Chelsie. Mmmm hmmm.

It was so natural for me to do that God had to show me this gift. So I could show Mama this gift God gave us. It’s so cool. The parent will feel the pull form their energy, just like Jesus did. I know, Mama prayed for me. And I am grateful. She’s pretty humble and would not tell me to toot her own horn. But it clear. She did. Many times.

I don’t know if Mama knew that Mama Jean was part Native American? Osage tribe. From Kansas. Mama jeans great great grandmother was a Osage princess. And she’s related to Lady Godiva. I am trying to look up about her native heritage now. Letters and things to find out what we can. I want her to be connected to her roots too.

I’ve learned a lot from her and do love her deeply even though we quarrel a lot. It’s our thing. We banter and fuss. I kind of crack up at these two woman who have been fighting my whole life and have never met. But Mamas in me, oh yes. And her ideas have clashed with Mama Jeans and we have worked a lot out.

Mamas kind of tender and gets upset a lot. I did too. I got my feeling hurt a lot growing up. Mama Jean said some harsh things to me. But I listened anyway, even when it made me sad and I felt like I never would win. I’d brush it off and try to forgive and forget. That’s was my problem. I struggled to tell her and she struggles to understand. It’s the adoption thing and that we were from two different worlds even though I had had only 9 months in one world it made a deep Impression on me and made Mama Jean look crazy cuz she did not do it right, or like Mama. I seemed to just know, or feel a different way to do it.

But I drug Mama along with me like my well worn blanky I loved so much and didn’t know why until God showed me that it smelled like me, which smells like Mama. So funny when god puts it together and shows you why when no one else can. These days my instincts tell me Mama needs me. Like the friend I am. All bold and strong to lift her up and she’d needed light on things so she can see her way through this reunion, bonding process that was Interrupted so long ago.

It’s just natural that I cry and she’s upset cuz she can’t figure out what I want. Cus she tuned it out so long or gotten used to us this way, I have to show her how bonded we are. So she can see this miracle too. But the trash had to go first. Mine and hers. We had picked up some stuff and gotten tangled. Her pain was mine and mine was hers and God wants us both healed.

I believe deeply that God wants this for us all. Or I would not be here working so hard to get through. Is just go on my merry way and just forget Mama. But God won’t let me and now I don’t want to because I am so excited about what’s next. God does not clean up things for no reason. It’s always to make room for better.

Mama will get all her answers after she gets that this is God doing a big work for us and helping us clean our slates. Mama needs to put her slate down now and look at what is. And what is is that:

  • Her girl loves her
  • That’s all is forgive once we confess
  • That we must confess on to the other
  • And then we must work to make so many good memories that the old ones just fade away.
  • That’s time and come spring cleaning can do wonders for perspective
  • Faith is the substance of things hoped for
  • The evidence of this unseen
  • Her kids pretty smart
  • Her daughters not a quitter, even when she wants her to be
  • Her family is whole now or almost.
  • She’s pretty lucky to have such a strong kid who cares this much to put her life on hold to fight demons with her words God gave her and set us free
  • She pretty lucky I am a spiritual warrior in prayer. I can ask God for a parking space and I get it.
  • That her daughter walks by faith
  • That her daughter is a preacher, since a child.

God loves us all this much. But I had to answer the call to do this. I don’t have to go here with Mama and me. I could be like many Adoptees and just languish and sulk.

But I spit on each hand when God called me up to bat. And I slammed it out of the park for Mama sake, for God glory and for folks to see. God still alive and still has healing in his wings. You just got to learn to fly and trust God.

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