I love you Chelsie Lynn!!

Look at this drama. It’s between a Mother and daughter estranged from each other. It’s a feminine Prodigal son story. Except woman do it differently. And telling the truth comes hard. It took me 50+ years to get mine out, to spend years trying to find the perfect words to speak such a deep and vulnerable story as mine, and as yours sweetheart.

So. Like a good Mama. I showed you how. Grama showed you what it looks like to block ones truth, me. And I showed you how I do it. I don’t give up. I keep knocking at the wall. With love in my heart. Because love is the only fuel to live on. I let you see me vulnerable, in front of the world!! Girl. For you to see what this Mamas made of and what I do when separated from my previous surprise. I don’t do well at all. How can I not miss a piece of my soul? Of my flesh? Of my mind.

Your a girl in my head.

And I can’t get you to leave.

But the truth is I don’t really want you too.

The skinny is that I kind of like you.

You grew on me, climbed on me.

But my heart always has a place where the fire burns bright.

And a cup of tea is only a whisper away.

And where my arms are open wide, waiting to hug you, accept you as you truly are.

Grace is over it all.

I love you.

Nothing can separate us from each other!! It’s by god’s design.

You are so loved. I don’t know how Grama did what she did with me? Living without you is like a day without the wind. It’s like the one person that knows how to touch that special place in me. Wacky. And just kooky. Fun. Sassy. Like what.

YOU MAKE ME LOVE THE PART OF ME THAT IS LIKE YOU. YOU GIVE ME STRENGTH TO BE STRONG. TO BE BETTER. TO GO HARDER. TO SHOW UP. EVEN IF TIRED AND WORN OUT.

Baby girl. I love ya. I apologize for my long overdue tantrum about a bunch of stuff. Let’s move on. I’m cool without gramma now. I just want to see you and catch up. I’ll be at Nana soon. Well. prayers little girl, that grew up.

So silly messaging my family here because they blocked me? But. Whatever! Ok. Great block guys. Not.

Thanks for diving deep with me today.

God bless.

Life is crazy. So why do we care about normal again? Normal is the problem!! Lol

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