Yeah. I caught it from the woman I was born from. She’s loaded with it.

Mental illness refers to a wide range of mental health conditions — disorders that affect your mood, thinking and behavior. Examples of mental illness include depression, anxiety disorders, schizophrenia, eating disorders and addictive behaviors.

Who wouldn’t be depressed if their own Mama abandoned them?

Who would not be anxious about their new Mama doing the same? And worried about failing at being a good daughter to a stranger that showed up to do her job?

Who would not have an eating disorder if they had trouble swallowing the truth of being your Mamas lie.

Who would not feel like an empty whole and try to fill it? With Drugs, alcohol, shopping, work, and food?

Who would not split into more people to help themselves be safe? When you feel all alone? Who?

Labels don’t describe a cure. Labels, are like judgements. I’ve defied those labels. I’ve risen above the labels to be who I always was, amazing, unique, and caring.

I kept my children. It was not easy being a Mama when where I came from could be like the way my Mama is still. It was not easy for Mama Jean, because she didn’t get a manual, and didn’t even know who my Mother was.

My Mama got many references from Mama Jean. What references did she give? Did she give a report of

How she ate? Drugs she took? Her blood type? Her medical History? Her family history? Behavioral History? Well, guess giving me awAy was a behavioral report of sorts. Play don’t pay kind of behavior.

But from what I saw, a few days ago? She’s still loaded with all these. Her house

Filled with shit like a hoarder, religious zeolite, ocd, and definitely schizophrenia. It’s like talking to so many people at once. Totally helped me to see where I came from and where I gone since I was created.

So blessed right now. The tie was cut. God did it because I could not.

If you struggle with any of these. It’s ok. Your gonna overcome. As I stand here and profess. The truth will set you free.

Thanks for diving deep with me.

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