Chelsie Lynn

What is your problem? Mama has been waiting for an explanation. You are now going to be 25. You are an adult. And I do expect you to act like an adult woman and explain yourself to me.

Now, your friends, and whom ever is counseling you can tell you until the cows come home that you owe me nothing. But sweetie? You and I both know your stalling. And this mess needs to be cleaned up and how. I am not going to warn you any longer. And when God gets done? Well, you know the drill. You’ve done this in the past. And Mama has always told you, I will find out. Do you want me to hear it from someone else? Or are you gonna own it and fess up. If someone else tells me? Well, you don’t get the win of being honest. You just earn the reputation of being a chicken shit.

Your birthday is coming. We shared that day together. Remember? You came from me? And it’s so upsetting to see my own daughter who KNOWS! This kind of behavior does not cut it with me, I raised you better than that. What, are you doing? Look at it. It’s so like how Gramma acts with me. Can you not see that? I could give a shit about what she did for you. She owed it to you as your gramma to help. That’s what a birth right is. Whoopidy do.

What really burns me up is how you have not even appreciated me enough to be a grown up and talk to me about this. It’s been 5 years almost! What kind of counseling are you getting up there? Because as I see it? Your counselor sucks. If we are like this? They suck. Seriously, you tell Gramma you need protection from me? Why? What happened? Because I seriously do not see the abuse you seem to have made her believe of me? Who does that? You did that.

I guess you wanted everyone to know. Because now you can run all you want, but honey, you can’t hide. Your Mama, you know, the one you came from? That you have obviously told your friend Christine I was not a good one. Let me tell you about what a Mama is. She is a friend. But friends tell friends the truth. Friends do not nag. You knew how I felt about you moving out at 16? I made it clear. And yet you did it anyway didn’t you? Why? Maybe now would be the time to tell me why? Instead of just playing like you don’t even have a Mama.

I am not sure what the deal is? Maybe Drugs. Maybe this, or that. I will not speculate. I will ask. So this is me asking. And if you want to angry at anyone, maybe start with yourself, for thinking you couldn’t talk to me. Yeah start there. I have chased you all over, moved you out and in to places. Moved you from each school you didn’t like? Gone to school and went to bat for you when no one believed you. What in the hell is your issue? The list goes on and on.

I really hate when I have to trump you. But I’m done with my own daughter acting like this. If I have done something? Please, tell me. I’ve been a bit busy trying clean my own act up and tell my Mama the truth. Don’t you see that? Like I just told 54 years of stuff to my Mama. And I guarantee, if your honest, I won’t call the cops on you. You can take that to the bank. But come clean. I just don’t understand how you can tell folks you love God and keep acting like you are?

Matt 18:15-

15“If your brother or sisterb sins,c go and point out their fault, just between the two of you. If they listen to you, you have won them over. 16But if they will not listen, take one or two others along, so that ‘every matter may be established by the testimony of two or three witnesses.’d 17If they still refuse to listen, tell it to the church; and if they refuse to listen even to the church, treat them as you would a pagan or a tax collector.

18“Truly I tell you, whatever you bind on earth will bee bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth will bef loosed in heaven.

19“Again, truly I tell you that if two of you on earth agree about anything they ask for, it will be done for them by my Father in heaven. 20For where two or three gather in my name, there am I with them.”

What is going on with us is a missed mark (sin). Now I have taken it here for witnesses. Will you continue?

Matt 5:23-

23 “Therefore, if you are offering your gift at the altar and there remember that your brother or sister has something against you, 24 leave your gift there in front of the altar. First go and be reconciled to them; then come and offer your gift.

Let’s us reconcile. Let us do and show my Mama how it’s done. So our offerings may be given in clear conscience. We must crucify our flesh with the truth. And practice the scriptures we profess to follow. I am not above the scriptures. And no stranger to correction. Neither are you. But if Christ be within our hearts, we must do this or god gets no glory and we live in sin.

I love you enough to stand up to you. Do the same for me.

Mama.

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