I mean excuse me for ruining your candy, cupcake train with my truth. Excuse me for being the rain on your fake ass parade folks, as you parade around with someone else’s kids to prove you are fit to have one? Excuse the hell out of me. But you can be excuse if you like? But I am not gonna stop talking until a real conversations is started with everyones side, ok?
And from what I can see is that a whole nation of children lay in silent submission as the world just goes on with their lives removed from one family and placed as part of another more deserving families play and they truly just want to go home deep inside? Like hello? So unfortunate you thought you made the best choice, but I see that God made the right choice sending us to whom God sent us too. OK? And folks have been going around saying God said this and that. The word does not show me where adoption is Gods idea except that we are adopted into his family. And that is only because we have a human tendency to exclude people we deem less than we? And that is what god is trying to say when the reference to adoption is made. We all are Gods children. And those who don’t know how to share and see that all are our brothers and sisters, God needed to make the point that we are all adopted.
Children sent to a family is God sending that child there for a reason, a society that tell a Mother that her job is to give her child to another because society deems her not ready, or equip to raise that child? That is so silly. Our minds so finite, should not think to rearrange what God brings together. If the Mama dies, we should seek to place that child with a family member and support (meaning educate and support them in doing well),them to raise the child. It makes us stronger to raise children, they kind of give us hope and children sent to woman and then told to relinquishing them is a shame on us all for being so ignorant to the natural order and to think that God will not notice.
That is why I came here. To experience what it felt like and to report it ALLLLLLLL. Not just candy lollipop, fairytale land that we thought we were creating, but the down side, so deep, not one can see. Children long for their Mamas and Daddy’s, and family, always. And our anger is because you do not even try to return us there and say we will be messed up for it? We were messed up the day our parents were removed from our lives. We are left without a proper mirror to gaze into, we look at faces, trying to find the woman who left us always.
Our hearts are like heat seeking missiles, seeking out Mama’s we languish for her. And THAT IS BY DESIGN, OK? GOD DESIGNED IT THAT WAY? OK? AND WE ARE DOING CHILDREN SUCH A DISSERVICE TO REMOVE THEM AND GIVE UP ON THIER PARENTS IN THE WAY. IT IS NOT OK. AND IT MUST STOP. RECORDS MUST BE OPENED AND WE MUST BE ALLOWED TO RETURN.
AND ALL MUST SUPPORT THAT REUNITING, FOR IT IS HEALING FOR THE WHOLE UNIT, THAT IS DOWN FROM A MORTAL WOUND, AND SO LOW THEY DONT EVEN RECOGNIZE ONE IS MISSING, THE PAIN IS SO NUMB, THEY JUST GO ON, LIMPING. IT IS ABUSE IN THE HIGHEST FORM.
My Mama goes on with the lines she was given long ago, even though God brought me back and gave her a new script and play that was way more happy. But she carried so much baggage from years gone by, just limping along, trying to do right, when she was lead astray by a nation that let she and I down. Shame on the Adoption Agencies, Shame on the Church, Shame on those who consent to take a child without the intent to return them and to support those children highest good. We must commit to care for children and to help parents rise to the occasion with all the tools. Dont tell me another story about abuse! When we could have supported the parents by educating them and giving them support and resources to rise to their highest potential. Who in the hell are we to condemn anyone?
But for the grace of God go I? And yet we condemn folks all day long, we rip kids away from homes, and we support ourselves and our inflated Egos that say we are doing our best by removing children from their family of origin. I dare say we ere. And it must stop.
Trashy talk is for when the trash needs to be cleaned up. I have grown up adopted and struggled a lot. I am strong. Thank heavens my Mama and Daddy gave me good genes and O- blood to help me. It is rough on the mind and the body. I have worked hard to thrive and to rise. And my truth is my testimony of the love of a child for its Mother, and that we just don’t give up. We hope each day, she will come for us. We languish when folks are happy and talk smack about our family line, calling them whores and such. It is hurtful.
People! Adoption sounds so nice, but it is hurtful. It is hard. Moses had speaking problems, it causes an affect on our language area, Hello! I have worked to gain my voice and have sounded like a babbling fool! Mama Jean did not know any different? She did not let people label me! Thank Heaven. But I saw how folks acted when I spoke. I have seen the reactions of my own Mama as I speak to her, she acts like I am mad? I have a speaking issue. I speak differently because of being adopted.
If you think about it, I have learned two languages. Mama Linda speaks about the bible, and if it don’t jive with scripture, you don’t jive. And Mama Jean speaks intellect and instinct. So I am a mix of the two and then of course there is my Dad. My Mama acts like I am some crazed animal, now should she think that of her child? hell no! But she does. And why? Well, because she does not know, or has not thought about the fact that I learned her language while in utero and then had to store that, and learn a new language from my new Mommy. That is work folks.
Talk about a rewrite! At two days old, but I knew I was leaving and could feel my Mama’s pain and anger about it. And I sent her lots of love while I was in, it was hard, she was not happy about me. That is sad. A baby should bring joy, like Jesus did to Mary? And she was unwed? Was she not? But she trusted God, did she not?
Who took my Mama’s trust in God to take care of us? Who? What person told her she could not? A thought, a way? WAs it a person? Or was it fear from woman being called whores and their children being treated like bastards? Yeah, I was still teased as an adopted child, I was not protected from societies thoughts about my Mama, and I had to stand and fight alone. Mama Jean did not get it. She was all happy go lucky being my Mom and just going along as planned and trying to make it work. While I was in a total head spin, dive bomb, tornado! Hello! Head spinning and trying to make sense of what everyone was telling me about this and that. And most of it lies made up in the minds of mindless people who don’t even know shit.
Lollipops can rot your teeth if you at to many. Truth is salt and it preserves us, when we over do. My story is truth and salt for us to look at what we do when we choose, for we all choose to turn away when a child is removed. And in a nation under God, it should to be. Team america is only as strong as its members, with children removed from families, and families not given every resource to rise to the families highest expression, we fail.
How could the world make her believe I would no come back and want her? How could she feel so little in her own child’s eyes?
Thank you for diving deep with me today.